I never knew.

I never knew of
the way my
hair would define my
anxieties and worries and
insecurities like a 
mask I couldn't
control.

I never knew of
the way a
lover could be
such a steady source of
strength as well as
reflection as well as
question marks.

I never knew but
could always sense the
way a giant leap of
faith could
reform my identity and
break it down and
leave me wondering,
quietly thinking with
no one to hear what I
thought.

I'm finding strength in
the unsure, the
unknown, the
in between.

Keep on 
being. No
matter what.